One day my mother and I were watching an entertainment (news) channel and the reporter was asking pilgrims of Alampur about their experiences on the visit to the temple. I inquired my mother about the significance of this place and she enlightened me on this.
Belief has it that Parvati married Shiva against her father Daksha's wishes and Parvathi immolates herself for the insult by her father. Shiva grief-striken and imbalanced emotionally, performed the rudra tandava dance, carrying the corpse of Parvati. The Universe unable to bear the fury of the dance requested Vishnu to intervene, and Vishnu used his chakra to tear the body into several pieces, and bring down the fury of Shiva's tandavam. The severed pieces of Parvati's body are believed to have landed in several spots across the region, and these are referred to as Shakti Peethams. And Alampur is one of the eighteen Sakthi Peetams.
After she finished telling the whole myth, I asked her why the pieces had landed only in India and not in other countries like France, Japan, US etc. when they say the whole world is ruled/defied by Trimurthis. She was clueless. I told her that all our Vedas and Puranas doesn't exist and they're just stories to teach us what is right and what is wrong. And she started believing that God doesn't exist, whatever she was taught/read about God was just an illusion and God is just a belief. Once she realized that I was re-programming her subconscious mind too, she came out of whole thing I was trying to tell her, she despised me for that moment and we laughed together later.
If God doesn't exist then whoever has written those Puranas and Vedas has terrific creativity, knowledge and imagination and I'd say he/she is better than any philosopher, writer, director, etc..
To be very honest I'm not an Atheist and I too strongly believe in God. That being said, whether God exist or not is still a question to me and my childish nature makes me question on certain things. When my thinking goes beyond the scope of human capability/capacity like Solar System, Milky-way, Galaxy, etc. makes me realize then there is someone who is controlling the whole thing and we named him as God.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
I've some respect for prostitutes
Long time ago I read a column in the "Eenadu" sunday edition on R Narayana Murthy, who was very popular for his revolutionary films and in some parts of Andhra Pradesh masses treat him as the demigod. In that column he shared all his life experiences.
That time East and West Godavari Districts were affected badly by the floods. Narayana Murthy and his friends were shook emotionally by this incident and started to collect money, clothes, etc. from each and every house in their village. In this process they had visited a prostitute's house and requested her to donate something for the flood victims. She replied, I don't have any customers since morning and if you could wait till tomorrow I'll be able to donate. After reading this my perception towards prostitutes has changed significantly. I thought they're just human who derive pleasure and money from the work they does and nothing else.
I started to think of the consequences that lead them to prostitution. If not all some of them were definitely driven by the dynamics and the situations around lead them to this state. And I respect the prostitutes who were forced into and continue to hate the rest all.
That time East and West Godavari Districts were affected badly by the floods. Narayana Murthy and his friends were shook emotionally by this incident and started to collect money, clothes, etc. from each and every house in their village. In this process they had visited a prostitute's house and requested her to donate something for the flood victims. She replied, I don't have any customers since morning and if you could wait till tomorrow I'll be able to donate. After reading this my perception towards prostitutes has changed significantly. I thought they're just human who derive pleasure and money from the work they does and nothing else.
I started to think of the consequences that lead them to prostitution. If not all some of them were definitely driven by the dynamics and the situations around lead them to this state. And I respect the prostitutes who were forced into and continue to hate the rest all.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Chiranjeevi Vs Chiranjeevi
5 or 6 years ago Chiranjeevi in the one of the interviews said that he used to overact as compared to the films released after 90s. I wasn't convinced with that statement considering the films "Swayam Krushi", "47 Rojulu", "Manavoori Pandavulu", "Subalekha", "Abhilasha", "Challenge", "Aaradhana", "Idi Katha Kadu", etc.. I'd say his films released prior to 90s were better than the films released after, barring a few.
I find most of the stars did better films during the starting of their careers. This is because the director, writer, producer etc. don't bother to think about the actor, they only think of the character. They prepare an actor for a character and not a character for an actor. This I'm saying only in the context of an actor who does have a stardom however a few exceptions are there.
Coming back to Chiranjeevi's films, I find "Rudraveena" much better than "Tagore" in the intellectual and emotional sense. Both the films dealt with "For a better society" concept.
"Rudraveena" was about the ideological clash between a person and his father; what is the use of music if it disassociates with the commoner and lives of those it touches. Though it didn't deal totally with the "For a better society" concept, the approach for social reform was very much appealing. Chiranjeevi was at his best in this film; I was surprised to know that he didn't win best actor award for this film. His performance was far better as compared to his performance in "Indra", for which he won Nandi Award.
"Tagore" was about an individual who is fed up with corruption, forms an anti-corruption force to eradicate it. Till here it sounds good but the approach didn't appeal to me as it was miles away from reality. No dumb professor would preach his students to kill the corrupted government officials. I couldn't control despising Srisri's "Nenu saitam" as the movie spoiled the mood of the song.
"Tagore" was far better than "Rudraveena" in terms of the collections and to correct myself emotionally too in the sense of anger. That's the only emotion I found through out the film. Of course, I experienced other emotions as well in rare, single sparks that flash and die without consequences.
I find most of the stars did better films during the starting of their careers. This is because the director, writer, producer etc. don't bother to think about the actor, they only think of the character. They prepare an actor for a character and not a character for an actor. This I'm saying only in the context of an actor who does have a stardom however a few exceptions are there.
Coming back to Chiranjeevi's films, I find "Rudraveena" much better than "Tagore" in the intellectual and emotional sense. Both the films dealt with "For a better society" concept.
"Rudraveena" was about the ideological clash between a person and his father; what is the use of music if it disassociates with the commoner and lives of those it touches. Though it didn't deal totally with the "For a better society" concept, the approach for social reform was very much appealing. Chiranjeevi was at his best in this film; I was surprised to know that he didn't win best actor award for this film. His performance was far better as compared to his performance in "Indra", for which he won Nandi Award.
"Tagore" was about an individual who is fed up with corruption, forms an anti-corruption force to eradicate it. Till here it sounds good but the approach didn't appeal to me as it was miles away from reality. No dumb professor would preach his students to kill the corrupted government officials. I couldn't control despising Srisri's "Nenu saitam" as the movie spoiled the mood of the song.
"Tagore" was far better than "Rudraveena" in terms of the collections and to correct myself emotionally too in the sense of anger. That's the only emotion I found through out the film. Of course, I experienced other emotions as well in rare, single sparks that flash and die without consequences.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
An awful thought that I'm proud of
One day I was standing in the ca campus 5th floor balcony or sit-out and was watching a group of workers talking to each other on the roadside. I don't know what happened, all of a sudden all the workers started to run towards the compound wall of ca. For some reason I was terrified as it reminded me of the terrorists attack on Taj Hotel and Oberoi Trident in Mumbai and I was shocked as I presumed that these guys were about to attack ca. While I was still being shocked, the workers stopped as if someone pulled them from the back and soon I realized that these guys were having fun after a day's work just to cheer up themselves.
After I came out of my hallucination I laughed at myself and thought what if a terrorist group as matter of fact any anti-social group attack a software company in the same way. This very thought reminded of a line from "The Dark Knight".
Do you wanna know why I use a knife? Guns are too quick. You can't savor all the little emotions. You see, in their last moments people show you who they really are.
I was the little repugnant of myself for being anti-social in theory. That being said, each and every director who deals with anti-social subjects would think in the same way and I was mighty proud of this awful thought.
If I make a movie on this I'd adopt "Spy Game" narration style.
After I came out of my hallucination I laughed at myself and thought what if a terrorist group as matter of fact any anti-social group attack a software company in the same way. This very thought reminded of a line from "The Dark Knight".
Do you wanna know why I use a knife? Guns are too quick. You can't savor all the little emotions. You see, in their last moments people show you who they really are.
I was the little repugnant of myself for being anti-social in theory. That being said, each and every director who deals with anti-social subjects would think in the same way and I was mighty proud of this awful thought.
If I make a movie on this I'd adopt "Spy Game" narration style.
Friday, December 18, 2009
I've been a failure
Many times in my life I felt most of the people I've come across are doing what they have to instead of what they want to; I'm no exception. This could be the reason why I see a very few who have been successful and have had a quite satisfaction many a time in their lives. Having said that, I'm a very confused person, I don't know what I want to and that's the reason why I'm in IT.
For Society success is a relative term in the sense that human always feel successful by comparing with its relatives, neighbours, colleagues, etc. and to my knowledge no other living being has this sort of nature. I re-define success as someone doing something that he/she wants to.
In my hometown Tenali, there are a few doctors (for instance Mr. Patibandla Dakshina Murthy) who happened to be my relatives have been very successful in their profession. That's because they have been doing what they wanted to. Though I didn't interact much with them and all this I'm saying is what I perceived from my parents who spoke with them every now and then, other relatives and I never heard anyone telling or speaking wrong about their work/profession.
After I'm done with post graduation I was jobless for a long time. During that time we had our bathroom renovated and I happened to meet this person who fixes tiles for bathroom. What I've observed in was he had been punctual and very particular and careful while doing his work. I could see that he has done it with so much concentration and it didn't matter for him me observing the whole thing, that's because I don't exist for him as he was immensely involved in his work.
One day after a day's work I had a brief talk with him about his work and lifestyle. I never cared about the veracity and what I perceived from him was he was happy for what he had been doing through out the years and pretty much content. He was single and whatever he had been earning was more than enough for his lifestyle.
My whole point about this blog is I still don't know what I want to; I'm still on a quest...
For Society success is a relative term in the sense that human always feel successful by comparing with its relatives, neighbours, colleagues, etc. and to my knowledge no other living being has this sort of nature. I re-define success as someone doing something that he/she wants to.
In my hometown Tenali, there are a few doctors (for instance Mr. Patibandla Dakshina Murthy) who happened to be my relatives have been very successful in their profession. That's because they have been doing what they wanted to. Though I didn't interact much with them and all this I'm saying is what I perceived from my parents who spoke with them every now and then, other relatives and I never heard anyone telling or speaking wrong about their work/profession.
After I'm done with post graduation I was jobless for a long time. During that time we had our bathroom renovated and I happened to meet this person who fixes tiles for bathroom. What I've observed in was he had been punctual and very particular and careful while doing his work. I could see that he has done it with so much concentration and it didn't matter for him me observing the whole thing, that's because I don't exist for him as he was immensely involved in his work.
One day after a day's work I had a brief talk with him about his work and lifestyle. I never cared about the veracity and what I perceived from him was he was happy for what he had been doing through out the years and pretty much content. He was single and whatever he had been earning was more than enough for his lifestyle.
My whole point about this blog is I still don't know what I want to; I'm still on a quest...
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